One of the most precious gifts I have been given in this lifetime is the opportunity to forgive and be forgiven.
I shared in my previous post that I had a powerful experience of forgiveness many years ago. I held deep resentment toward someone who I felt had betrayed me. My mind kept going over all of the reasons why I should feel this way. Well-intended friends and loved ones agreed wholeheartedly, yet my heart felt so uneasy.
This was a new experience for me, and I was uncomfortable feeling that way toward another being, however hurt I was. I realized that I needed to move forward and, in order to do so, I had to forgive. I could not have inner peace and at the same time harbor this negativity toward another.
But where to start? I wanted deeply to transform the pain and negativity.
Those days I had just begun my practice of devotional chanting. I chanted for hours every night, completely absorbed in the practice. The testing and purification was intense. Having little financial resources, I lost my home. I clung to my practice more than ever.
One evening, no longer able to carry this pain in my heart, I asked the Divine for help.
The answer was immediate and crystal clear: Just let it go.
Just let it go? I had not considered that as an option.
I understood this to mean that it was up to me to hold on or let go. In my heart, in my mind, and from my mouth, I uttered I am ready to let it go.
And the greatest burden was lifted from my being. I was free.